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Flashback before I fall asleep, then nightmares during sleep, then just pure unadulterated paranoia in the morning. It sure is nice to know that even when I'm relaxing I can't relax. Plus I've been feeling awful and sick about myself and my appearance and it makes me want to do bad things. But that's okay. I'm seeing my counselor today. We're gonna reschedule so I won't have to cancel on her so much, so with any luck I'll be able to see her again this weekend. Sorry again for inactivity. Expect some smallish art updates soon.

And that ridiculous thing is this. I'm having one of those days when I feel that I have no worth. Memories from last year came flooding back and usually I can suppress them, but this time they've just been invading everything I see, hear, and feel. I don't know what to do about this. I want those memories gone. I don't want the flashbacks or the nightmares or the feelings of fear or guilt anymore. I can't focus. Tiny little things that piled up and affected me more than he realizes. I wish my hair were longer. I could use a hairtie right about now.

Sorry for inactivity lately. I've been not only hecka busy but I've had a lot on my mind. Sit back and enjoy the ponies.